"I won't back down..."

"...no I won't back down. You can stand me up at the gates of hell, but I won't back down."

Thank you, Johnny Cash, for being there for me at 4:00a.m.

Rain

I noticed last night that my car battery had died at some point in the past few days, and if I didn't move the car by tonight it would have gotten a ticket tomorrow. So at 1:00 a.m. me and Ronnie went out into the pouring rain and pushed my car from the spot where it was parked into a space across the street, and we got soaked in the process.
I realize that this doesn't sound all that exciting, but the whole situation made me laugh and it made me happy.
Sometimes my life can be good.
This was the topper to a night that included watching Singin' in the Rain, having a good rehearsal, and shooting a bunch of zombies in Left 4 Dead with Ronnie while eating pizza.

Like I said, sometimes my life can be good.

Senior Year

It's my senior year, and I'm trying to find every way I can to get as much out of this year as possible. But I keep hitting roadblocks. Everything I think of I can't do because I'm average at everything. I'll get my hopes up and think that I really can do a job well, and then someone else gets the job. I should get used to it, because it's part of the business that I want to get into. I just wish that there was some talent or quality that I had that no one else has. And the only thing that ever made me feel like I was more than just average is gone.

The only comfort I've been able to find for weeks was when I watched The Dark Knight a few days ago. But I hate to say that even that didn't work 100%. Talk about a great movie, though. I mean, damn, that's about as close to perfect as any movie can get.


Whatever lesson I'm supposed to learn from this part of my life, I wish it would just become clear. The worst part is sitting back watching everything happen knowing that I can do something, but not being able to.